Wednesday, 13 June 2012

Spirituality, Mental Wellbeing and Social Networks...

Facebook has an exquisite way of drawing together individuals of like-mind... many of which would not find connection in any other segment of their life journey and naturally this indeed would be a tragic loss of opportunity and shared wonder...

I consider it a privilege to have nurtured these connections and as a result am gifted with regularity the intimacies of their daily pathways, infinitely sparkling with Wisdom, Knowledge and Love...

Naturally this interaction has an incredible bearing on my life, though sadly it is not altogether positive... this however I hasten to add is not a criticism, or resultant through any conscious act on their part... As I regard my list of friends I realise that to a greater extent I often gravitate towards people of a defined Spiritual nature and of course it is prevalent in the content of their posts and updates....

The hardest part for me is reading about the intensity with which they follow their chosen Spiritual path, be it through personal or collective Ritual, opportunities of shared knowledge, documenting connection, creativity to honour the Divine or simply beautiful quotations of Love, Joy and Positivity... it fills me with Wonder, Respect and Love both for them and for their Spiritual commitment...

The overwhelming sadness for me comes from what I feel is the highlighting of my own inconsistency and inadequacy. Feelings that through the uncontrollable and unpredictable workings of my mind disallow my engagement with the Divine, my Goddess... Whilst others are rich within the intimacy of 'Divine Connection' I am doubled up with anguish and self loathing at my inability to find connection with the exception of morning prayer in which I try desperately to offer sincere gratitude and reverence for the simple daily blessings bestowed on me by the Goddess, God and the Mother Earth... however more often than not these are interwoven with self chastisement and the lengthy apologies for my failings, the dust shrouded altar, the unlit candle and the arm that however long it might extend will always fall short of allowing even the faintest fingertip touch with 'Nature' and the 'Web of Existence'...

I sit here, face marked by a rueful smile... there is no bitterness in me, no envy of joy-filled connection of others... there are merely questions that I cannot answer alone... why can I not overcome this crippling personal entanglement of mind, free to bathe gloriously in Divine Connection... and perhaps I am not singular in asking this... that is why I seek to engage 'like-minded' others, so that perhaps we may provide mutual support in our journeys to find our own meaningful Spiritual path... our own Divine Connection...